And here we are, the most (personally) disappointing track on the album! It's disappointing to me because it could've been SO much better, but the vocals suck shit because I was sick and Chris was dealing with chemo and shit so you know, can't really expect retakes. I tried my best to make it sound better though, and it does sound a little better. Nowhere near as good as it could've been though!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Original FAWM Commentary:
Disclaimer: The use of the word "gay" in this song is not meant to be offensive and is not being used negatively. Further, if you are offended by the use, Chris is not to blame, as he only provided vocals, I wrote all the lyrics so direct your hate toward me.
So I technically "finished" this song a few days ago, but I couldn't get it up until now because I was waiting on additional vocals.
The song-writing process for this one was kinda interesting I guess, I started writing the lyrics for the verse first, and I think I had that and the pre-chorus before I started putting the instrumental together and writing the rest of the lyrics.
I remember I saw the week 3 theme was "conversation" and I can't remember if I had started writing the lyrics for this before or after I saw that, but it must've been the last day of week 3 when I started writing this, because the theme changed the very next day.
But yeah, since this was supposed to be a conversation, I thought "why not bring on Chris to do additional vocals, that'd be cool" and then I started writing the lyrics based on conversations me and Chris have had recently. It started out serious but then kinda devolved into nonsense, so that's always fun.
I also tried to once again write a more synthy pop-punk (think Motion City Soundtrack) but I don't think I quite got there. Definitely closer than I got with "Happy Song" though.
Also the vocals aren't great, because I was sick and Chris had short notice and was also kinda sick I guess. And Chris accidentally sung the chorus where he takes the lead at 2x speed, so there was the problem of how to fix it, in the end I just decided to play his vocals two times in a row to fill the gap, because it sounded the least awful ;3
lyrics
Hey there.
Are you okay there?
Are you feeling any better
Today?
Yeah man,
I'm okay man.
But I've been better
Than I am today.
Well that's good to hear,
I was worried you would fear
That you wouldn't get better again.
I still have that fear,
But I'm glad that you're here,
I'm glad that I have you as a friend.
I'm so worried about your health.
(Just remember, don't give in, things will be fine again)
I'm so worried about myself.
(Keep reminding me so that I'll see you now and then)
But we're gonna be fine one day.
(But what if I don't make it? I'll leave it all behind.)
I know that we'll both be okay.
(At least then they'll care for me, but I know I'll be fine.)
Hey man,
So you're saying
You could really use some comfort
Today?
I guess,
If that is best
But it better be some comfort
That's not gay.
Hey man,
I'm just saying
A hug could really do a thing
Or two.
Hey man,
Just understand
I don't want a big gay hug
From you.
Rude.
Now, you listen here
Let me make it crystal clear:
I'll only say it once again.
And I'll tell you this
'Cause I'm getting kinda pissed,
I only like you as a friend.
I'm so worried about your health.
(Just remember, don't give in, things will be fine again)
I'm so worried about myself.
(Keep reminding me so that I'll see you now and then)
But we're gonna be fine one day.
(But what if I don't make it? I'll leave it all behind.)
I know that we'll both be okay.
(At least then they'll care for me, but I know I'll be fine.)
So what you're saying
Is you care for me
But you're not gay,
You say?
Yes Chris, I'm not gay
but I care for you
Is that so wrong
To say?
I don't know how to feel about this.
(Wait, what happened, why am I now singing in the back?)
So I guess now I'll lead the chorus.
(Oh I see, I can't believe that I would get the sack)
But I don't really know what to say.
(I'm so mad right now 'cause I just wanna lead again)
But I know that I'll one day be okay.
(But I'm not too mad with you to say I'm not your friend)
I'm so worried about your health.
(Just remember, don't give in, things will be fine again)
I'm so worried about myself.
(Keep reminding me so that I'll see you now and then)
But we're gonna be fine one day.
(But what if I don't make it? I'll leave it all behind.)
I know that we'll both be okay.
(At least then they'll care for me, but I know I'll be fine.)
credits
from Rehash,
released September 21, 2018
additional vocals by Christopher Tom
SFX
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"Running Shower" by Tomako of flashkit.com
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