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Better
02:10
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I'm just hoping that things will get better
I'm just waiting for things to get better
Just keep telling myself it gets better
I just really hope it gets better soon
Every time I start to feel like
Everything is finally right
Things just go south after a few
Now I just don't know what I should do
I can't get along with you
I'm just hoping that things will get better
I'm just waiting for things to get better
Just keep telling myself it gets better
I just really hope it gets better
'Cause if things just don't get better
I don't know if I'll get better
'Cause I've sure got worse since ever
God I just hope things get better soon
I guess I just made things get worse
I'm just forced to live with this curse
Now my head swells with thoughts of death
Every intake is a heavy breath
I don't know if I hurt you
What if I made it all up?
I'm just a worthless sack
Why can't everyone just shut up?
Be happy, and please don't send me back
I can only take so much so please stop
I'm sorry I said anything please stop this
I just stood up for myself, but I'll stop
I can't take anymore now I just feel worthless
I'm just hoping that things will get better
I'm just waiting for things to get better
Just keep telling myself it gets better
I just really hope it gets better soon
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2. |
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Everybody wake up
Everybody wake up
Everybody wake up
Everybody wake up
I can't take it
I want to die
I can't make It
I don't know why
Everybody's gonna get me
No One's gonna come set me free
Oh how I wish
I could just stop this
Oh why can't you see
Just stop, you're hurting me
I'm so sorry
I just couldn't see
And now I just hate me
So sad, you just can't be happy
Everybody wake up
Everybody wake up
Everybody wake up
Everybody wake up
I can't take it
I want to die
I can't make It
I don't know why
Everybody's gonna get me
No One's gonna come set me free
Everybody shut up
Everybody shut up
Everybody shut up
Everybody shut up
What's happening?
Was it a lie?
Do I hate him?
Is it my mind?
Everybody's messing with me
I can't tell what is reality
So now I'm
Stuck in my mind
Can I get out still?
Will I be trapped
In this fate
And end up like them?
I've gotta fight
I'm still sane
In some right, I'm not them
I was so close
That I saw my ghost
But now I can see
That that isn't me
I don't want to be
Like them, it's not pretty
So now, I won't hurt me
I don't just want pity
And I've got so much left
To do, and still my best
It waits, for me to make
It through, but is it fake?
I hope that this is true
'cause then I can help you
But I'm just sad to see
'cause this was supposed to be happy
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3. |
Today
01:30
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Every day I cannot wait
To see what sticks with me
I can't escape this fate
Unless I am set free
But I can't get that way
Unless my mind's erased
Once the dark clouds all part
I'll finally get to start
And every day I wait
I don't know what to see
I end up losing hope
And I lose a part of me
But when it finally sticks
I cannot wait to see
Is this what it feels like
To finally be free?
But sometimes it's just so hard
I don't know how to play my part
Suddenly the panic starts
And everything just breaks my heart
And I can't take it anymore
But you know that, I said before
I've tried so hard, got lots to say
So that's why it broke me, I screamed today
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4. |
Tonight
02:53
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I'm feeling lonely tonight
So I'm gonna fight
With myself
And if it's only one night
Then why should I find
Someone's help?
I can't wait
Until I leave ths place
If it's ever
Gonna be that way
I can't wait
To leave it up to fate
'Cause somebody's gonna
make me go away
I'm feeling lonely tonight
So I'm gonna fight
With myself
And if it's only one night
Then why should I find
Someone's help?
I'm feeling lonely tonight
So I'm gonna fight
Someone else
And since it's only one night
Well, then I don't need
Anyone else
I just can't pretend
it all exists
'cause what matters
is that I persist
Just stay quiet
While they bite and hiss
I just can't depend
On fighting all of this
I'm feeling lonely tonight
So I'm gonna fight
With myself
And if it's only one night
Then why should I find
Someone's help?
I'm feeling lonely tonight
So I'm gonna fight
With myself
Well, it's been more than one night
So I wouldn't mind
If you helped
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5. |
12-30-20
04:06
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Hey dad I'm sorry
I just couldn't make you proud
It's been ten years since you died
and I just don't know how
Every day I end up wasting
really brings me down
I guess it ain't so bad though,
'cause I'm still not in the ground
There's always a chance
You'll see
If you work for it
you can be free
There's a new year coming up
I wanna work hard so I won't be stuck
I'm gonna try my best to make a name
But what if it just ends up being the same?
I have reached my limits
More times than I can count
And my head keeps spinning
'Cause I'm always filled with doubt
I'm only so lonely 'cause
there is no one around
Well, I got them, but man
they're always bringing me down
There's a new year coming up
I wanna work hard so I won't be stuck
I'm gonna try my best to get back on top
I really hope there's nothing forcing me to stop
Again
This year was not good, but I don't need to tell you that. None of it really matters though now, 'cause... it's over.
The year that is.
But of course things never go to plan, ya know. Always have big plans for the end of the year. They never come true.
I just wanted to get something done that would make my dad proud, something that I could be proud of, and I couldn't, because I'm just not capable of making things as fast as it needs to happen... because I'm so depressed.
But I'm going to try so hard to actually make things happen next year.
Whatever it takes.
Whatever it takes.
Well I tried
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