Why does today Feel so bad When it's okay? Have I gone mad? Even when the day is good I just end up feeling bad There's that stupid thought again, Oh god why did I say that? These things are always haunting me, Every stupid, awkward time. I just can't escape these thoughts, They cloud my mind and make me think that nothing's fine. And so today I feel okay, At least for now... Wish I knew how... But I don't know Where to go With my art That's just the start... But for once I've found out what I should do And it's all thanks to you 'Cause you're such a good friend And I will begin And work 'til I'm through But oh no I can't bring myself to Even when the day is good I just end up feeling bad There's that stupid thought again, Oh god why did I say that? These things are always haunting me, Every stupid, awkward time. I just can't escape these thoughts, They cloud my mind and make me think that nothing's Going my way, And I don't understand. How could things be going bad? I spent so long on the plan. Maybe I should try more, That just might work out for me. I hardly ever did before, So now I will and then we'll see 'cause Things could be okay, Just not today.

Some days I try to find my way, I can't make it, I can't help it. I just don't know what I should say, How does anyone make it through this? I just want some closure. I just don't understand. Am I any closer? How am I still not a man? And when will it matter How I feel about it? No consideration, I won't cry about it. I just want some closure. I just don't understand. Am I any closer? I will never be a man. I just want some closure. How don't you understand? I'll lose my composure. Do I need a helping hand? I'm just so fed up I Don't know what I should do I'm completely lost but I'm still thankful for you But it doesn't matter At least it feels that way I guess it just isn't working I feel like I never have a say Today Am I okay? I don't know what to say. It's just another day What will happen today? There it goes again I'm wonderin If it's worth livin And I don't know If I should show It doesn't seem like it's working My head's throbbing And I don't know why I wanna die Oh god, oh why? I swear I tried It's just so hard And I can't tell a lie It's fine I just want some closure. How don't you understand? I'll lose my composure. Do I need a helping hand? Every day I'm closer To the promise land But I will get better Maybe soon I'll understand

Something strange Happened to me I felt a change, What could it be? I feel so happy For once I can see Oh god everything's So clear to me And I can finally Get things done And I can finally Have some fun 'Cause I can focus For once And I know this Isn't done I woke up today But it felt like a dream I felt more than okay What does this really mean? It happened so fast I feel so good How do I make this last? I really wish I could I thought all my fears Would come true But now I'm here Because of you In fact, my fears Have mostly ceased It's become clear At least to me That they didn't Really mean anything And I now Have the chance to sing About how I Got this way I got a job So now I feel okay I woke up today But it felt like a dream I felt more than okay What does this really mean? It happened so fast I feel so good How do I make this last? I really wish I could 'Cause things aren't good At least not right now How did it get like this? I wish I knew how I wish I could stay, Not have to wait and see I just wanna run away But I can't escape me And I can't seem to find my way Even though things should be going okay Things are going good But I can't see I wish I could I know that I'm a better me Yes, most days I feel so bad I'll hide away Everything I've had But I now have The chance to see What really is A better me And I've waited For so long And now I've made A happy song 'Cause some times I can feel good I'd make it last Oh, I wish I could I woke up today But it felt like a dream I felt more than okay What does this really mean? It happened so fast I feel so good How do I make this last? I really wish I could I wish I could feel good

Yeah, sure Say that I'm not trying Despite what I Did the other day Oh sure Say that I'm just lying Not like this All matters anyway Yeah, okay I didn't try as hard As I should But I still worked today Just not as much As I should But I'll keep on trying Anyway I keep on Hating myself For some reason But I can get help Yeah, okay I guess it's not so bad But I still Don't wanna work today These pills ain't helping That much So why keep taking them? Instead I'll touch Myself tonight I guess I don't wanna fight This yet I just really need Some rest Everything will be fine I bet (I slept)

I just wanna say That I will try harder today 'Cause I just have so much to do And I can't bring myself to But I've gotta get over that 'Cause if I don't I won't come back And I don't want that to happen And I hate how things are so uncertain If I just stopped wasting my time Everything would be be so fine I could get so much more work done And maybe I could see the sun So from this point I'll try harder I'll start doing things more smarter Wake up, work, and animate Just keep on going, not insane I guess I'm broken But I can be fixed I keep on choking But at some point I can do this It's so late how am I still awake? I don't know, but I didn't work today. I just wasted so much of my time So now I won't meet that self-imposed deadline Oh god, I can see the sun What time is it? How am I not done? I've been at this thing for days It's still not done, and that's not okay It's not like I've been working that much There's more things than this that I touch And now the suns up, so I can't sleep But I'll still try, I'll admit defeat I guess I'm broken But I can be fixed I keep on choking But at some point I can do this Why am I so broken? I don't know I guess it's my mind It just ain't working But I know I can fix it Some day But when will that be? When will I fix me? I guess I'll start now I can't just mope about How is it so late? It's almost 6am I'm just so filled with hate All this time I could've been working The sun is almost fully out But there's nothing to cry about I'll just stay up, get things fixed So that I can finally do this But I can't bring myself to do it 'Cause I'm so tired and I've been up for so long And I just wanna go to bed I'll just start again tomorrow Try to finally fix my sorrow I can do it if I try enough But can I actually focus for once? I guess I'm broken But I can be fixed I keep on choking But at some point I can do this I know I'm so broken So now I can be fixed It just takes that bit of effort So that I can finally do this

I'm at the hospital and I've got a lot to say It's controversial so I hope I don't ruin your day Stop only giving a FRICK about chronically ill people only when they die 'cause they're still people when they're alive

There's a light switch And another And another And another Here's a light switch What a wonder Where's another? Over under now There's not enough Light switches In my life right now How will I ever make it? Without light switches In my house? There's a light switch And another And another And another Here's a light switch What a wonder Where's another? Over under There's a light switch And another And another And another Here's a light switch Where's another? Maybe there's more Somewhere in my house

I just wanna Find another Way to do Things that I can't seem to 'Cause I just Can't seem to Bring myself to do The things I need to do today 'Cause I'm such a faggot And I'm not quite bragging 'Cause this sucks so much I wanna smash my head and Keep on talking 'bout it And I'll never shout it 'Cause I must stay quiet Gotta keep on lying And I'm not quite trying To offend the masses I'm self-deprecating 'Cause it keeps it passing on I just wanna Find another Way to do Things that I can't seem to 'Cause I just Can't seem to Bring myself to do The things I need to do today So I keep on trying ...and I keep on lying And I keep on smashing 'Cause it's never passing And I'm still offending Drive away the masses Oh, it's never ending And my dick's gone flaccid But I swear it's better Some things are just harder And I keep progressing And I've almost got it now So I keep on Doing this today But I can try Get things done Today I guess I will

I can't take it I am not fit Why am I like this? I can make it If I try hard Colored lights and lignting This all hurts my head You asked me to join and I just sat here instead The sky's exploding And so is my head The sky's exploding And I just feel dead

Oh what I'd give for a chance to feel it again But I just squander the chances I get now and then So I just keep on repeating the same old spit I swear I would be fine if I could just move on from it again It's just the same again Things are the same again This is the same again I don't wanna talk about it It's just the same again Things are the same again This is the same again I don't wanna talk about it It's just the same again Things are the same again This is the same again I don't wanna talk about it It's just the same again Things are the same again This is the same again I don't wanna talk about it now But I will keep on and keep going harder 'cause if I don't now I'll never get farther And I keep saying that I'll start tomorrow I'll fix everything But instead I feel sorrow Again It's just the same again Things are the same again This is the same again I don't wanna talk about it It's just the same again Things are the same again This is the same again I don't wanna talk about it It's just the same again Things are the same again This is the same again I don't wanna talk about it It's just the same again Things are the same again This is the same again I don't wanna talk about it 'cause I'm just so scared I've got nowhere that I can go to feel happy again Except my friends But I don't wanna be a burden to them again I'd be so happy if I weren't here right now I'd be so happy if I weren't in this town I'd be so happy if god would put me down I can't be so happy so instead I guess I'll drown I'd be so happy if you could just asnwer why I'd be so happy if I could manage to cry I'd be so happy If I didn't want to die All the time But do I really wanna? I don't know, if I'm honest. I don't wanna be a hautning. I just wanna be somebody. And I just really wanna Do nothing but make a lot of Art and animation that my dad would be proud of 'Cause he didn't seem to like what I was making when he was alive And I don't really like it either 'Cause I can do better 'cause I've now got better In more ways than one And now I've realized it again It's just the same again Things are the same again This is the same again I don't wanna talk about it It's just the same again Things are the same again This is the same again I don't wanna talk about it It's just the same again Things are the same again This is the same again I don't wanna talk about it It's just the same again Things are the same again This is the same again I don't wanna talk about it now If I could do it before I can again I've gotten stronger and I still have my friends I can't just sit here And keep doing nothing 'cause I'll just fall back into it and I'll be here Again I'll try again

It's the 4th if July And I'm sure you're such a good guy But I just wanna die When I see you ('cause you're a faggot) Cause you're just such a fag Yeah, you're quite a big drag And I just wanna gag At what you do I hate you, oh god why? I guess I'll just go kill myself