And here's the other of my two favorite songs from this album, and overall. And it's my longest yet!
At this point in FAWM, I wanted to end with a big finale, but then I was gonna upload a short joke song moments after being like "jk here's my last song" and for this big finale I decided to try my hand again at making a Box Car Racer-like post-hardcore/emo song with a long intro, and I think I pretty much nailed it. Even if it's not exact, it's exactly how I wanted it to be and it's pretty kickass if I say so myself.
Plus it's super deep and shit. Like there's a lot of references in the lyrics to stuff only I would get and it's pretty cool. Also this song's not about suicide.
Okay that's pretty vague, I guess I'll elaborate. So after writing this, I thought "oh shit this sounds like it's about suicide" with references of "taking the easy way out" and just being emo in general, but in this case "the easy way out" isn't suicide, but in fact, getting a job, moving on, and getting better. So the exact opposite, really. How is that the easy way? Well, I'm a stubborn asshole and I really don't want to get a job, so I had been taking surveys to get money and it fucking sucked. But I didn't want to get a job because it would get in the way of making stuff, but I wasn't even making stuff anyways due to depression, so I thought getting a job would really be the best thing for me, but then I started thinking about what if I'm so unstable that I end up cracking from pressure and have a mental breakdown in public? Well then I guess I would just be able to get SSI, which is the ultimate easy way out. And ironically, taking the easy way out is a lot harder than doing the alternative, but you could probably say that about anything.
Anyways, here's the original FAWM commentary:
And here we go, my final FAWM song! And it's my longest song yet, that's fitting.
I started off FAWM wanting to make a Box Car Racer inspired post-hardcore song with a long intro (see Nasal) but I lost inspiration and just retreaded old ground instead to get something out, but I thought it would be fitting to end how I tried to start, and here it is. I'm really happy with how this came out, almost exactly how I envisioned it.
Also I called this "Bright Future" because apparently a lot of punk songs use the phrase "no future" so instead let's be hopeful and look forward to a bright future, don't gotta be moody all the time ;3
So yeah, FAWM is done for me. Sure I could probably bang out a few more songs and "win", but I'm really happy with the batch of songs I did manage to make, so I don't wanna ruin that. Plus I've got other things to work on anyways.
FAWM was fun though, I'm glad I decided to participate.
lyrics
I don't know if I should take the easy way out.
I don't know if this is even worth crying about.
I don't know if I can even make it out there.
I don't know if any of this is even fair.
But I guess I could try
I guess maybe I won't die.
But I don't know
If I should show you how I really feel.
And I don't wanna try
But I don't wanna die,
So I'll try.
I don't know if I should take the easy way out.
I don't know if this is even worth crying about.
I don't know if I can even make it out there.
I don't know if any of this is even fair.
I wish I knew everything
There is to know
But I don't wanna learn.
'Cause I don't have the drive
To do anything except I
Need to do this so that I can
Finally be a better me and
Stop believing that I'm useless,
Oh how I wish that I could see
There's a bright future ahead of me
But only if I believe that I
Can achieve it
Oh god I wish I could see this through to the end.
But I don't know if I should go.
What should I do? I fear I know, too.
I don't know if I should take the easy way out.
I don't know if this is even worth crying about.
I don't know if I can even make it out there.
I don't know if any of this is even fair
But I really just wanna know
Can someone please tell me if so?
Please tell me if I should take the easy way out.
Please tell me if this is even worth crying about.
Please tell me if I can even make it out there.
Please tell me if any of this is even fair.
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